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Almost Done03:18 Jul 31 2009
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I have one closet yet to pack up and then I should be finished. Lauren came by today with the news that The house will be cleaned out over the weekend and i can start moving in. I wont be able to move the furniture out right away but i can take boxes in and start unpacking them. I have to round up three cat carriers.
Emma and Mickey can go in one. But Mickey and Zeus will have to go in separate carriers. Zeus is new, seems Pat, my neighbor decided to stay in new york with her daughter michelle, who was diagnosed with MS. But neglected to tell us that she was staying, her daughter Renee is cleaning out her mother apartment and Pat basically abandoned poor Zeus. So I couldnt let him go to the pound. So I will take him and find him a good home.
Cats16:41 Jul 28 2009
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Ok I know im a sucker for critters, doesnt matter what breed or species. I love animals. I have three cats who I just adore, they accept me for the way I am and never yell, well Mickey does when hes hungry. They have given me hours of enjoyment and return the love in alot of ways. They have given me company when I had no one. They dont mind that i hog the remote. or stay up all night.
Only two things drives me crazy that they do. They cant come to you when you call them. and the litter box. I saw my screen door was open and just knew Angel the houidini in the family had opened it. So while im out side yelling like a damn idiot. I come back around the side of the buiilding to where my patio is, to see Angel and Emma sitting comfortably in front of the couch.
yeah they wait til im outside and then come running.. i cant figure out where they are hiding. Angel weighs a good 25 pounds easy. i cant see where she could hide her fat butt. Emma is a little petite lady, weighs just five pounds. so ok i can see where she would hide. but Angel? shes squeezing her fat ass in somewhere. So once again the neighbors think ive lost my mind.
lol
Its Packing Time19:04 Jul 27 2009
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Well I started packing today, in earnest, I remarked to Ozzy while i took a small break, that some how there was something sad about packing up your life . he said no, not really. I thought about it and he's right. While I've been happy here off and on. Its been really a struggle to keep this place and to keep it for sheer spite didnt really do me any favors. I love my patio, my little flower garden and the sun shining in through my patio door in the morning. I wont be sad to leave here. Its been hard living here the last few month, worrying how was I going to manage.
But talking to Lauren and getting out the frustration of it all has helped. And I really dont need the frustration of the bullshit that goes on here. The place is nice to look at on the outside
but the apartments arent worth the money. The house Im moving to is small but its a small house. I am really excited. but the computer will be turned off by the end of this week
smile when i return I hope to have my house in order and can enjoy the quiet lol
Mickey D's02:39 Jul 25 2009
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Today was a busy day. I went and cleaned for Nancy, Her favorite Nephew was killed in a car crash last weekend, and tomorrow is his funeral. She is having people over friends and family.
I found out through Lauren that the deposit and first months rent will be paid on Tuesday and I can now start packing. I have to give the apartment management my two week notice. I shall be out by the third. Tomorrow I clean for Mr. Tattman and then clean for Tonya on the first. I went out with Todd Wedsday night to bingo and won a hundred dollars but i split with him so i got to bring home fifty. With that bought cat food and cat litter and a few treats for me :)
Not often I get to spend any money on myself. So i splurged and hit up mickey d's. The agency that pays for my medicine for my depression, are giving the money to the landlord for the house. as soon as i can i will try to have pictures up. it doesnt look like anything now, but i am going to try to make it look nice.
for the first time in months, I am actually excited!
Can't Wait To Move01:23 Jul 24 2009
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i started packing a few small thins for the move. I know thats putting the cart before the horse but i am just so excited. Been thinking of how to put my furniture in and whats going to go where. keep thinking i need to be organized
but moving is never organised. its hectic and fun. and alot of hard work. Lauren should bring me the keys tomorrow andi can start moving maybe this weekend if the place is ready for me.
gotta get a few cat carriers for the cats to stay out of trouble while i move things in. shouldnt take me long. only things heavy to move are my two book cases a curio cabinet and my books, desk and computer, have to find something to pack my dragons in. the books i can put into boxes. but I am so thrilled. I cant believe its a house. and im moving out on my terms not anyone elses.
Lauren16:51 Jul 23 2009
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Lauren is my caseworker, she works for an agency called transitional living. She sees me three times a week and makes sure that im following the plan that we sat down and discussed the goals I have set for myself. She takes me to my doctor appointments and has helped me look for a job and a new home.
She loves her job and yes she says it gets overwhelming at times but loves her job. She sees alot of positives in her life, but thing that amazes me is how young she is, to do this kind of work.she isnt much older than my jenny and lauren just turned 26. She has a good head on her shoulders and she does take good care of me. although ive called her a mother hen at times.
She brings the cats some cat nip from time to time. She is really a great person to put up with me. she seems really shy at times and i think she pushes herself past that to get the job done. she brings me my medicine and makes sure im taking it everyday.
And we discuss the ways of handiling my depression. Its her job to give me the tools to make things better, to learn how to deal with it, as depression never goes away. you just learn to deal with it. I wonder sometimes if it ever gets to her. but she says that she meets all kinds of people and she loves what she does. Im glad they put her on my case. im not so sure i would have done this well if it wasnt for her.
Sire11:56 Jul 22 2009
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after four years, i finally made Sire, Wooo Hoooo!!!
Go Back To School Baby.17:44 Jul 21 2009
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Once again I am floored. I grow sick and tired of these so called "slaves" first off you have no idea what the fuck you are doing. Second, your a child, nothing more than a sixteen year old wannabe. Whats the matter? did your age tell your iq? Well it shows. any one stupid enough to tell their age on their profile on VR and then tries to sneak onto an adult site, didnt think anyone would notice? you thought wrong. You got what you deserved. You got caught. Do us a favor. when you grow up, if you ever grow up then come back. Other than that, go on back to school and play with your barbie dolls. Maybe some day you might learn something. or better yet how did your parents feel about you? hmm not too proud where they? or did they know? whats that you say? oh you lied. How very mature, rolls eyes.
Rant over.
Changes22:21 Jul 20 2009
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A few things have happened to me this week. Some good, some bad.
lets start with the bad news first. I had three panic attacks and the medication did no good. I just let it run its course and went to bed. What triggered it was arguements between my mother and myself, while that is nothing new and improved. It proved to me just how much I need to stand up for myself. My mother may have been a dominant in her past life i think. shes a control freak when it comes to me.
While she doesnt try that with my girls or my other sisters, Im always the one she vents to. As if everything in the world is my fault because I dont listen to her. My uncle isnt doing well, the cancer has spread to his lymph nodes and in this revelation, he feels that he can talk to any one just however he wishes. My mother exploded on him and he in turn vented right back in the hospital. So my mother decided to go to the smokies for the next four days and she needed to.
Now the good news. :) the doc upped my xanax after i explained the panic attacks. So i had a good check up. My case worker Lauren and I have talked about why i stay in this apartment when im really not happy here. oh of course i love my patio apartment and the little flower garden i put in but too much drama ensues around here and she made me see that i hung on to the apartment out of spite. to spite Ronnie that I didnt need him. I proved my point she said but only at my expense. not to mention my mother's expense for helping.
the really really good news is Lauren found a house thats cheaper in the rent. its on the west side of down town. to where i can walk if i want to. I will miss nancy and pat. But will still be coming back here to clean on saturdays for the people i clean for. The house sets on north d street in the quiet part of the historical district The rent wont ever be raised and I can have my cats and i dont have to pay more for them. the owners of the property are lawyers and the house is a two story house with a one bedroom upstairs. its small mind you but i dont need much. for the first time in a long time im excited.
I think about what to do with it when i move in. make it a home again for me. I am actually smiling. of course i have to leave here by the first as my lease was up as of last september, I opted to live here month to month. so I can leave at any time. and as for the deposit I dont think i will get it back. these people are cheapskates and will find any reason to keep the deposit.
It's time to move on. and I am ready for change once again. this time its on my own terms and not someone elses...
The Person in the Mirror18:16 Jul 10 2009
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I remember Michael Jackson when he was a cute little kid and watched his career bloom and barriers broken by his music. Regardless of what you may think of the man, His music did one thing that really no one ever had before, he brought people together, for one day didnt matter if we were black or white green or purple. He was a musical genius.
People talk about changing the world, how many of those actually tried? Michael left this world a better place then what he found it. He actually tried. so To quote a line from the song "Man in the Mirror"
*if yuu want to make the world a better place take a look at yourself and make the change.
And maybe thats all we really need to do. Is to look in the mirror.
The Space Station and A Racoon.15:04 Jul 07 2009
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Last night I had taken my medication early and decided to stay home and watch a few dvd's. But Nancy and Pat had other plans. Nancy who is just now finding the joys to a computer, sent me a im on yahoo, i had to poke fun at her one finger pecking on the key board, she asked if i wanted to come out side to watch the satellite fly over, i had to ask her first , what satellite and didnt she mean the lunar eclipse that is supposed to happen tonight (not yesterday) she proceeded into good naturedly swearing at me. so as a joke I went over to pat's as she was using her computer,
I knocked on the door to see nancy still typing a response lmao. it wasnt a satellite, was the space station. so we three went outside and had to figure out which was was southwest. but i looked up to see a birghtly lit star flying over head. It was pretty cool to watch.
Pat asked if i had taken my medicine and i replied that i had. she remarked she had never seen my calm and mellow lmao. i said its an act lmao
so we walked in the back of the apartments, and remarked how the management left the doors and windows open in the buildings. I had said before that last year a raccoon had wandered in and a bat had flown in the window.
Just as i said that we turned the corner and saw a raccoon at the dumpster, we froze for a moment. and it wandered off back to the woods.
not really an exciting night but was worth the mention. lol
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LadyChordewa
21:39 Aug 01 2009